Aug 22 post from my other blog...enjoy!!

Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Life is so much harder when you can't just think about yourself...
You don't know it when you are young or single or just married without kids...you have no idea at all.
I didn't.
I look back now and think...ARGH! I was such an idiot. I had no clue how good I had it.
To only have one person to worry about...or even only one person in addition to yourself, as is the case in marriage.
I remember being single for the first time in 4 years...I was 20 and I felt so free. I lived alone and loved my job and that's all I had to worry about. For that brief blink in time I could have dated anyone, gone anywhere, done anything. It was gone sooooo fast.
I don't regret anything...not at all. But I write this so that others who are experiencing that brief blink in time can appreciate it. That they can understand what a unique, amazing time it is. Even if you never plan on getting married or having kids, some day you will be married to something. Your home, your family, your friends...something will root you deeply into itself and you will be hardpressed to be released from it.
But if, for now, you are a seed on the wind, not yet planted, take this time you have before growing your roots and love it for all it is. Don't pine after things that may be beyond your control or even your grasp. Hope for the things of the future but do not allow yourself to be controlled by the desire for what you currently don't have.
Because you will look back...and if you have spent all of your time looking foward and none looking to the now, you will wish you had realized the time for what it was.